AAPL is finally a green in my portfolio. I've made some money on it; I will be looking to get into EWS soon as well. I believe they will serve me well. On the flip side, sales are way down; I cannot seem to get a sale. I sure hope it's only temporary bad luck. Like everyone else, I have bills to pay.
AAPL is up, sales is down, and the Ms. and I are not talking at the moment. My grandparents still do not know I am leaving, and I am still to afraid to tell them. I leave in two weeks. I can feel the nervousness grow with each breath I take. The butterflies one gets when nervous, do not want to fly out of my stomach. It is all that is on my mind. I knew the day would come, but as always, it came too fast. Of course, now I am having second thoughts and I am afraid to go. Still, I know that no matter what I do it is too late. I have signed the paperwork and I am ready to go. I am excited, but I am still scared.
It's not really the fact that I am leaving to the military. I am more nervous and fearful because of the fact that I am leaving my family. Since earlier this month I have been having bad thoughts and nightmares about what might happen to my family. I am not there to protect them. Even if I would not have been able to protect them, I still would have been there.
I am better than this. I should not be letting my thoughts take over my mind. I should have more discipline than what I showing. I need to get my mind straight; this is kind of hard to do seeing as how I am at work. But it still needs to be done. I need a distraction from all this. No, I think I will look at all these things in the face and take it. After all, I am a man and a soldier. I should be stronger than this.
27 September 2007
23 September 2007
The Weekend Trip
I've been very busy this week. I do not have much time these days. But I will survive. AAPL ended the week at +2.74%. The markets are doing fairly well; I do not know whether that is a good thing or a bad thing. I was trying to pull the trigger while most of the stocks were still seeing red. I guess I should know not to time the market.
The stresses of work and school are catching up to me. At the dealership, I am not meeting my goals. It seems as if I am getting lazy; I do not know if I am getting lazy or crapped out. Either way, I must motivate myself to sell more cars. I am also slowing down with my school work. The last week of class is on Monday, yet my team still has to finish our presentation. I also have a final grammar test to complete. I am sure I have more, yet I cannot remember. I know, that is horrible, but it is the truth.
In other news, I have been in LA since Thursday. I am here to drop off my lil Ms. Bruin. When the relationship is fine, these are the times I hate to leave her. Today will be my last day with her until I come back from the military. My ship date is coming closer and closer. I am not scared, I am only worried about the health of my family and friends. Leaving from October to March, I know I am going to miss a lot. That scares me too.
I am also here to visit my father and my paternal-side of the family. So far I have had a decent time. Unfortunately this will be the most unhealthy weekend I have had in many weeks, but it is ok; I am enjoying it with the Ms. and the family I haven't seen in years. I do not keep in much contact with this side of the family. Hopefully, that will change. I hate to admit it, but I enjoy the way these guys live. Living in the hills is a nice change from the ghetto neighborhood of a metropolis. It is more upscale, more fine living-type. My father took me shopping, I politely declined all invitations to purchase something. Of course, there were the items that he had to purchase for me, such as new dress shirts, and a watch. He also gave me some of his suits that did not fit him anymore, as well as some pairs of shoes, a couple pairs of jeans, and a few jackets and sweaters.
So far everything has been great, but I have a feeling tomorrow will be quite gloomy: my girlfriend will be gone and I will have to go back to work. But since I have discovered "the Secret," I must not say that. Instead I must say, "Tomorrow will be a great day. I will be happy and I will sell a car. That is all there is to it."
The stresses of work and school are catching up to me. At the dealership, I am not meeting my goals. It seems as if I am getting lazy; I do not know if I am getting lazy or crapped out. Either way, I must motivate myself to sell more cars. I am also slowing down with my school work. The last week of class is on Monday, yet my team still has to finish our presentation. I also have a final grammar test to complete. I am sure I have more, yet I cannot remember. I know, that is horrible, but it is the truth.
In other news, I have been in LA since Thursday. I am here to drop off my lil Ms. Bruin. When the relationship is fine, these are the times I hate to leave her. Today will be my last day with her until I come back from the military. My ship date is coming closer and closer. I am not scared, I am only worried about the health of my family and friends. Leaving from October to March, I know I am going to miss a lot. That scares me too.
I am also here to visit my father and my paternal-side of the family. So far I have had a decent time. Unfortunately this will be the most unhealthy weekend I have had in many weeks, but it is ok; I am enjoying it with the Ms. and the family I haven't seen in years. I do not keep in much contact with this side of the family. Hopefully, that will change. I hate to admit it, but I enjoy the way these guys live. Living in the hills is a nice change from the ghetto neighborhood of a metropolis. It is more upscale, more fine living-type. My father took me shopping, I politely declined all invitations to purchase something. Of course, there were the items that he had to purchase for me, such as new dress shirts, and a watch. He also gave me some of his suits that did not fit him anymore, as well as some pairs of shoes, a couple pairs of jeans, and a few jackets and sweaters.
So far everything has been great, but I have a feeling tomorrow will be quite gloomy: my girlfriend will be gone and I will have to go back to work. But since I have discovered "the Secret," I must not say that. Instead I must say, "Tomorrow will be a great day. I will be happy and I will sell a car. That is all there is to it."
16 September 2007
Weekend
AAPL was up .7%, which is good because it is still in the green. I've been looking to add some international to my portfolio. I'm considering Singapore (EWS); however, I am still researching. Little by little I will diversify my portfolio; it just takes time to build up first.
The weekend went by real fast. Like most, I did not get to do anything I wanted to. I did homework, I went out to eat, and that was about it. Today is the last day to do anything for the weekend; hopefully I will do something today.
The trip to LA is getting closer; four days left and the Ms. goes back to school. My leave date is getting even closer. The 25 October I will be leaving to Georgie for BCT. I am excited, but I do not know what to expect. I am nervous only because there is a chance that after my training is finished I may be deployed. Only time will tell.
The weekend went by real fast. Like most, I did not get to do anything I wanted to. I did homework, I went out to eat, and that was about it. Today is the last day to do anything for the weekend; hopefully I will do something today.
The trip to LA is getting closer; four days left and the Ms. goes back to school. My leave date is getting even closer. The 25 October I will be leaving to Georgie for BCT. I am excited, but I do not know what to expect. I am nervous only because there is a chance that after my training is finished I may be deployed. Only time will tell.
13 September 2007
The Day Was Regular
AAPL was up .3% for the day. I'll try not to party too hard. But hey, at least it was in the green. I have yet to invest into any other stock because of my upcoming trip to LA. This trip is going to put a deep hole in my pocket, but I'll make up for it.
Other than that, the days have been regular. I had a meeting with JROTC today. I helped them established their cadet leadership; I actually took over and assigned positions. They're great kids, but they just need a little jump start.
The relationship is fine. Dealership is semi-slow, but I am still motivated to sell(kind of). Everything is fine. Is that a bad thing?
Other than that, the days have been regular. I had a meeting with JROTC today. I helped them established their cadet leadership; I actually took over and assigned positions. They're great kids, but they just need a little jump start.
The relationship is fine. Dealership is semi-slow, but I am still motivated to sell(kind of). Everything is fine. Is that a bad thing?
10 September 2007
Lagging
The past couple of days have been very slow. There has been no one at the dealership. For a weekend, it was tragic. A lot of us resorted to reading training manuals, popular magazines, and other materials. A few salesman even dipped into the Crown Royal to pass the time. Today I was off, but I have a feeling that because I am off, there will be traffic.
Because I was off, I went to visit JROTC. We went over some book work; 1SG and myself also began to discuss the creation of a leadership team. I believe we need to get this program together. I made a commitment to them; before I leave, the program will be rolling.
After that, I went to my grandparents' house. My grandmother must have mentioned to my grandfather the idea of me leaving to the military. As soon as I walked into the house, he asked me if I thought about going to the military. I told him I was thinking about it; he immediately began to tell me why I should not go.
When he was finished I went outside to collect my thoughts, until I realized it was 1715. Every Monday at 1800 I have school. I was 20 minutes away from the school, and my iBook and other materials were at my house; that was another 20 minutes away. These travel times are based on regular traffic. It was 1715 on a Monday, and I had to drive from one side of the city to the other. Imagine the traffic!
So I made it to school around 1820. Not very late, but I was still late. I hadn't been to school in almost three weeks; I was a little slow at the start, but eventually I caught on.
In the end, the day was a long one. At least AAPL was up over 2%. Tomorrow, another day and another eight hours at work. Good times.
Because I was off, I went to visit JROTC. We went over some book work; 1SG and myself also began to discuss the creation of a leadership team. I believe we need to get this program together. I made a commitment to them; before I leave, the program will be rolling.
After that, I went to my grandparents' house. My grandmother must have mentioned to my grandfather the idea of me leaving to the military. As soon as I walked into the house, he asked me if I thought about going to the military. I told him I was thinking about it; he immediately began to tell me why I should not go.
When he was finished I went outside to collect my thoughts, until I realized it was 1715. Every Monday at 1800 I have school. I was 20 minutes away from the school, and my iBook and other materials were at my house; that was another 20 minutes away. These travel times are based on regular traffic. It was 1715 on a Monday, and I had to drive from one side of the city to the other. Imagine the traffic!
So I made it to school around 1820. Not very late, but I was still late. I hadn't been to school in almost three weeks; I was a little slow at the start, but eventually I caught on.
In the end, the day was a long one. At least AAPL was up over 2%. Tomorrow, another day and another eight hours at work. Good times.
08 September 2007
Days Pass By
Thursday was a very slow day at the dealership. Not too much happening. I spend most of the day updating the new planning guides we were given. Management has decided to invest in the Joe Verde Training Network. I hear other dealerships have already been doing it, yet we are just diving into it. It's a good program, the other guys aren't so into it. Some think it's a waste of time, and some don't like how they are imposing it on us. I have no opinion; in the military I believe I will be imposed to do a lot of things.
Friday we had a sales meeting in the morning. We covered the training once more. After that, I headed to my grandparents' house. There I ate breakfast and softly broke the news to my grandmother that I had joined the military. I didn't tell my grandfather; she probably told him anyway. I also didn't tell them I was leaving at the end of next month.
It also just came to me on Friday that the Ms. leaves in two weeks. I am her transport every time she has to go out there. Sometimes that is all I feel like, a transport service; she assures me that I am not. But this does mean that I have to come up with money I don't have. Already just the hotel seems to be costing me around $500+. And this no spiff program is killing me!
AAPL seems to be slipping. Even with the announcement about the new iPod, the schools season for the iMacs, and the $100 credit to those who overpaid for they're iPhones, shares seem to be slipping. I believe it is a good and a bad thing. I don't like to see any red in my portfolio, but it does give me a chance to buy more.
As for today, I just hope something happens. We has some pretty good business yesterday, but nothing happened!! I must still be on this bad luck streak. Again, I hope something happens.
Friday we had a sales meeting in the morning. We covered the training once more. After that, I headed to my grandparents' house. There I ate breakfast and softly broke the news to my grandmother that I had joined the military. I didn't tell my grandfather; she probably told him anyway. I also didn't tell them I was leaving at the end of next month.
It also just came to me on Friday that the Ms. leaves in two weeks. I am her transport every time she has to go out there. Sometimes that is all I feel like, a transport service; she assures me that I am not. But this does mean that I have to come up with money I don't have. Already just the hotel seems to be costing me around $500+. And this no spiff program is killing me!
AAPL seems to be slipping. Even with the announcement about the new iPod, the schools season for the iMacs, and the $100 credit to those who overpaid for they're iPhones, shares seem to be slipping. I believe it is a good and a bad thing. I don't like to see any red in my portfolio, but it does give me a chance to buy more.
As for today, I just hope something happens. We has some pretty good business yesterday, but nothing happened!! I must still be on this bad luck streak. Again, I hope something happens.
05 September 2007
Very Busy
This weekend there was a Labor Day Sale. Business wasn't too bad, yet bad luck seems to be upon me still. I managed to get a half deal out of it. Labor Day itself was the slowest of the sales' days.
Yesterday and today were my days off. Again, I spent my time with JROTC. Yesterday was PT aka "Papa Tango" aka Physical Training for the cadets. I do not have to participate, but I choose to in order to set a good example. Each company was to run a mile. I ran a mile with each of the companies. However, in Charlie I was unable to finish my mile because of the fact that I had to pick my sister up to school. I have to take my baby sister to and from school. What a nightmare! She goes to school Downtown; so much traffic! Luckily, I won't have to do it all the time. It also cuts into my motorcycle riding time.
Today, we went over structure and rank in the cadet battalion. I believe I am getting through to some of the cadets. They seem to trust me more and listen to me more. I like this battalion; they're growing on me. I especially a fan of Alpha; they are small, but strong. I see much potential in a lot of cadets in the program.
As for AAPL, it gained much on Tuesday. Hope for rate cuts sent stocks flying. However, the Fed's report sent stocks tumbling. Today AAPL was down over 5%. Not a good day; everything I gained from Tuesday, I lost today. I can only look forward to the future. Unfortunately, I have to delay my purchasing of another stock until the next check; the Ms. will be going back to school soon. I decided to use some money to spend a little more time with her before she leaves.
Hopefully I will have more time to relax; this blog is part of relaxing. It is part of my de-stress routine. Until then, I better pace myself before I burnout.
Yesterday and today were my days off. Again, I spent my time with JROTC. Yesterday was PT aka "Papa Tango" aka Physical Training for the cadets. I do not have to participate, but I choose to in order to set a good example. Each company was to run a mile. I ran a mile with each of the companies. However, in Charlie I was unable to finish my mile because of the fact that I had to pick my sister up to school. I have to take my baby sister to and from school. What a nightmare! She goes to school Downtown; so much traffic! Luckily, I won't have to do it all the time. It also cuts into my motorcycle riding time.
Today, we went over structure and rank in the cadet battalion. I believe I am getting through to some of the cadets. They seem to trust me more and listen to me more. I like this battalion; they're growing on me. I especially a fan of Alpha; they are small, but strong. I see much potential in a lot of cadets in the program.
As for AAPL, it gained much on Tuesday. Hope for rate cuts sent stocks flying. However, the Fed's report sent stocks tumbling. Today AAPL was down over 5%. Not a good day; everything I gained from Tuesday, I lost today. I can only look forward to the future. Unfortunately, I have to delay my purchasing of another stock until the next check; the Ms. will be going back to school soon. I decided to use some money to spend a little more time with her before she leaves.
Hopefully I will have more time to relax; this blog is part of relaxing. It is part of my de-stress routine. Until then, I better pace myself before I burnout.
02 September 2007
Haiku
I am going to try and be creative here. The following are a few haiku about my day:
At the dealership
There was a Labor Day sale
My hopes were way up
The day was busy
But nothing seemed to happen
Only half deal
After all that work
I remain hungry for food
So i head to Gran's
Everyone shouting
I just want to get away
I want to feel free
It was a long day
I am sure glad its over
It's time to relax
I will look forward
Tomorrow will be better
I hope I make it
There was a Labor Day sale
My hopes were way up
The day was busy
But nothing seemed to happen
Only half deal
After all that work
I remain hungry for food
So i head to Gran's
Everyone shouting
I just want to get away
I want to feel free
It was a long day
I am sure glad its over
It's time to relax
I will look forward
Tomorrow will be better
I hope I make it
01 September 2007
Days Off
Thursday and Friday were my days off. I spent the days with the JROTC program. We did a lot physical training, but I enjoyed it. Even though I can feel it still, I enjoy the pain. I know I will only experience worse(/better?) when I go to BCT.
The markets were pretty decent. AAPL is moving up; I've been reading that the rise is because of the new line of iPods being worked on by Apple. I only hope that this continues.
As for my relationship, that's a different story. Sometimes I think I am too young for a committed relationship. But I love her, and my family knows her and likes her. I feel secure and loved. I feel we could have a future. But then I think, I am taking this too serious. Sarge calls it puppy love, or teenage love. I agree with him. But I do not know what to do about my feelings. I want to see what else is out there, but I like where I am. Then I think, I am too young for this crap. I will just wait to see what tomorrow brings.
The markets were pretty decent. AAPL is moving up; I've been reading that the rise is because of the new line of iPods being worked on by Apple. I only hope that this continues.
As for my relationship, that's a different story. Sometimes I think I am too young for a committed relationship. But I love her, and my family knows her and likes her. I feel secure and loved. I feel we could have a future. But then I think, I am taking this too serious. Sarge calls it puppy love, or teenage love. I agree with him. But I do not know what to do about my feelings. I want to see what else is out there, but I like where I am. Then I think, I am too young for this crap. I will just wait to see what tomorrow brings.
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